I always feel fresh when I have my hair washed in the morning. The weather today seemed nice, so I decided to sit outside for a bit and do some reading. But that good feeling didn’t stay long due to my neighbour who was on the phone taking out his frustration regarding the furniture in his house. I laughed each time he said ‘sew-faaa’ = Sofa. Soon after he started grilling some meat and I didn’t want my washed hair to smell of smoke, so I returned back in to my room and to my laptop.
I then overheard Mum on the phone with her friend, talking about family and parents. As for my Mum, she never really got the love of her parents, because her Dad died when she was 7 and her Mum left her to India when she was 8. It has always been staying with foster family (whom are her extended family/relatives). She never got what she wanted and her lifestyle was something decided by them and all she did was follow with no questions asked. Listening to her talk about her life to her friend made me wonder – What kind of life am I living?
I must say, I live like a Queen. Everything is done for and cared for. My Mum NEVER tells me to do anything at home. The only thing she does tell me to do is clean my room – which I hardly do and sooner or later she does it for me. Seriously, What kind of life am I living?
Mum does all this for us, maybe because….
Mum never got the love of her parents, that she showers unconditional love towards me and my family.
Mum never had the liberty to do what she wanted that she lets me decide on things I want to do in life.
Mum did housework (cook, clean, wash, etc) all her life that she doesn’t want me end up doing all those. (But that doesn’t mean, she didn’t teach me…..haha, each time she gets the opportunity, she tells me how to be a good homemaker.. 🙂 )
Despite doing all this, if I have a cut on my finger, she would do even more. After all it is just a cut, but no, that’s how much she cares for me.
Sometimes I think, she sees her “’wanted’ life through me. Since she never had a family of her own. We are her only family. My Dad, my Brother and Me!